On March 13, 2012 I committed my body back unto the Lord. I had been promiscuous from age 13-16, and honestly, my re-commitment was a God thing. I had just re-dedicated my life back to the Lord in January of that year. I gave my salvation to the Lord, because I wasn’t trying to be perfect. I allowed Him to lead me, and I followed. So, I had no idea that I would commit my body to abstinence at the time that I did. To be quite honest, I had just had sex the NIGHT BEFORE! I had no idea what would come out of it, but God knew though. Here I was, 16 years old curving every past and present fling, the majority of the guys who approached me wanted sex, and I wasn’t having it. Then, I became PUBLIC with my journey. After making it to my first year of abstinence, I just knew this is what I wanted to do. I even had my first “Godly” relationship that same year...FAIL.
Fast-forwarding to NOW...I’m saying goodbye to abstinence in the way that I’ve been doing it. 1. I’m saying goodbye to abstinence in hopes of getting married, and having sex with my husband for the first time on our wedding night. I mean, that’s just a bonus! It should not be the main goal, and sadly, I got to the place where it was mine. 2. I’m saying goodbye to abstinence thinking I’m better than my sister who is only two months, two weeks, or even two days in. I had this prideful identity that I was better than the next, because I closed my legs for nearly 6 years. Woohoo, I closed my legs, but have I closed my mouth? Have I loved in the way that 1 Corinthians 13 told me to? Yeah, closing my legs is the LEAST of my worries. 3. Lastly, I’m saying goodbye to abstinence IF CHRIST IS NOT THE GOAL. The MAIN reason that I should be practicing abstinence is because the Word of God, and THAT’S IT! 1 Corinthians 6:18(ESV) “Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body.” If Christ isn’t the goal, then I was doing it all wrong in the first place. So, I’m saying goodbye to my old reasons of being abstinent. I’ll no longer do it for a husband, or to get a pat on my back, BUT because the Bible said so!